Assalamualaikum....
.today was my final EOP exam for internal medicine..... but it did not seems to turn out well ... the patient was in respiratory distress with oxygen attached and difficulty in breathing....makes her difficult to talk...sigh.... it also make me difficult in taking her history.... but still i have to take the case ... enough with the patient now the dr evaluating is not very "friendly" and like to use a sarcastic way of talking..... plus my mind shut down with all the pressure today.... hurm.... pressure all around.... jealous with other people that have gotten an easier case..with easier and helpful doctor.. when my case was already in the complication stages.... now the only thing left is tawakkal and doa.... just when i was very down her comes my family (especially ibu) giving full support.... and in her support she gave me something that made me drop my tears.... that is very meaningful and very beautiful ..... a link with a topic of how surah ad dhuha can change your life (http://understandquran.com/how-sura-ad-duha-can-change-your-life.html) suprising but a very good read....
and the best part is :
Wa wa jadaka daal lan fahada— And He found you lost and guided [you].
How many of us, despite being born Muslims, have found ourselves misguided and straying away from Islam in the past? It was Allah who gave us that hidaya and brought us back to the straight path and to Him and made us practicing Muslims. Alhamdulillah!
just when he found you lost he guided you.....maybe this is also one of the love Allah gave me ...by reminding me through trials...and he sent the reminder through a person i cherish the most that is ibu....when i was too busy with all the life in the dunya and forget to read the quran and starting to feel lazy in waking up in the middle of the night for tahajjud.... this is when the trials comes in .... just a slight trial that is difficulty in doing the exam..... #throwback..! how can Allah be so loving that he reminded me when i am away from him.... Allah reminded me that He holds the heart of all people and He reminded me that all success and failure came from him both with the best benefits....crying out of my heart.....repenting.... should change my way of living ..... when i just got a small trial that was a hard examination.... when other people in other part of the world are facing even more than i do.... such as in palestine...they are losing their loved one....all the homeless people....how can i be this forgetful? Ya Allah ...please forgive and guide me in your path....guide me and my family and give your blessing to us so that we wont be part of the ungrateful .....ameen...
yours truly,
anabahibbak abadan
(lots of love-abah,ibu,maira,cha!)
